Another weekend, another sunday and another day full of boredom. I hate office days but its the weekends which I hate more and its growing with time.Its so dull...
I always wanted to go to a place where nobody knows me. here I am in Bangalore and believe me its really hard to cope with it. to live at a place where you know people but you cannot really call them friends. You don't have anybody to share your crazy dreams that you want to become the richest person or you want to marry Kate Winslet or to share a new PJ about Rajnikant. Its really hard to keep all these to yourself. To live at a place where you dont have anybody to go with, to watch movies, to pass time or just to walk with.
Well its been a long journey in just 8 months of stay in Bangalore. From being a student to a working professional, from bangalore to bengaluru, from being Abdul to some one else whom I also dont understand, lot of the things or I can say my life has completely changed in just few months.
Bangalore has taught me a lot. The city has given me a glimpse of real life. What Amir Khan says in Rang de Basanti "College ke gate ke is taraf hum zindagi ko nachaate hain aur gate ke uss taraf zindage humein" is quite relevant for me. Bangalore has done it for me....
But to be true I never liked Bangalore, not a bit of it. Too much of chaos and haphazardness and me accompanied by myself made a deadly combination of dullness, silence and full of moments when I felt time itself is too bored to do its usual tick tock. One thing I found amazing, the people, they are just by themselves I thnk they live in their own bubble where they dont want any interference from the outside world.
I also loved the moments when after office hours I was just roaming and didn't had any clue where I am going or may be I didn't wanted to know. The moments when the dullness grew on me and I became acquainted with it. I still remember the exact moment when i stared at a candle for more than 2 hours and just blinking 217 times.
These 8 months in bangalore was like "into the wild". I discovered a new me. It had a great impact on my personality. Now i have much more patience and much more quieter than usual. I am very lucky that I have my Sister here. I have someone to talk to...someone is there who scolds, someone who brings me back from my numbness.
I miss those good old days of my school and college. I miss my friends, sometimes tears roll down to my eyes making me appreciate those days. You don't realise the worth of something when you have it with you, but when its gone..... you come to know how precious and important those things were for you.....but now its gone.
My days are passing just like that, I am very confused with my life. Don't have any idea what I am gonna do with it. Steve Jobs said You have to keep looking until you find something which you love and when you will find it you will definitely know this is the thing which u wanted to do. I think my life is taking its course in that way only. Still I have not find something which I love.....But one thing is for sure my future prospects are looking great....and this gives me hope...hope on which i live........
I always wanted to go to a place where nobody knows me. here I am in Bangalore and believe me its really hard to cope with it. to live at a place where you know people but you cannot really call them friends. You don't have anybody to share your crazy dreams that you want to become the richest person or you want to marry Kate Winslet or to share a new PJ about Rajnikant. Its really hard to keep all these to yourself. To live at a place where you dont have anybody to go with, to watch movies, to pass time or just to walk with.
Well its been a long journey in just 8 months of stay in Bangalore. From being a student to a working professional, from bangalore to bengaluru, from being Abdul to some one else whom I also dont understand, lot of the things or I can say my life has completely changed in just few months.
Bangalore has taught me a lot. The city has given me a glimpse of real life. What Amir Khan says in Rang de Basanti "College ke gate ke is taraf hum zindagi ko nachaate hain aur gate ke uss taraf zindage humein" is quite relevant for me. Bangalore has done it for me....
But to be true I never liked Bangalore, not a bit of it. Too much of chaos and haphazardness and me accompanied by myself made a deadly combination of dullness, silence and full of moments when I felt time itself is too bored to do its usual tick tock. One thing I found amazing, the people, they are just by themselves I thnk they live in their own bubble where they dont want any interference from the outside world.
I also loved the moments when after office hours I was just roaming and didn't had any clue where I am going or may be I didn't wanted to know. The moments when the dullness grew on me and I became acquainted with it. I still remember the exact moment when i stared at a candle for more than 2 hours and just blinking 217 times.
These 8 months in bangalore was like "into the wild". I discovered a new me. It had a great impact on my personality. Now i have much more patience and much more quieter than usual. I am very lucky that I have my Sister here. I have someone to talk to...someone is there who scolds, someone who brings me back from my numbness.
I miss those good old days of my school and college. I miss my friends, sometimes tears roll down to my eyes making me appreciate those days. You don't realise the worth of something when you have it with you, but when its gone..... you come to know how precious and important those things were for you.....but now its gone.
My days are passing just like that, I am very confused with my life. Don't have any idea what I am gonna do with it. Steve Jobs said You have to keep looking until you find something which you love and when you will find it you will definitely know this is the thing which u wanted to do. I think my life is taking its course in that way only. Still I have not find something which I love.....But one thing is for sure my future prospects are looking great....and this gives me hope...hope on which i live........
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